Look What You Made Her Do

I’m sorry for being kind of AWOL and like not as attentive to this blog as I should be (I feel bad because I pay simblr WAAAY more attention and I shouldn’t baaaaaad Carrie)



I heard the new Taylor Swift song and…



Screenshot-1860I’m not even that sorry.



Memory Lane Challenge (?) (Matthews Random Legacy and DRSE)

is this a challenge?


So, I was nominated by HeatherFeather for my Matthews Legacy, and then nominated by Twinsimskeletons (SNP fuckboy but jk I love Carys really) for my DRSE on tumblr.

So…. Yeah

Congratulations! You’ve been nominated for a totally legit award.

1.Get a gold star and stick it on your forehead like a boss.
2. Share FIVE many lmao of your favourite moments from your legacy/challenge/story so far.
3. Nominate 3-5 blogs to do the same.

I added in the number 1. Do I only have to share 5? I’m sharing more.


So, I’m gonna start with my legacy (after all that is what’s here) and then do DRSE in the same post.


1.) Where Thomas and Erin got together

so, confession: I don’t have any pictures before Chapter 2.06 (I used to delete them after each chapter) so I had to hunt for the Generation 1 ones, which is why there’s a lack of them, and I remember this one where she thought he was dead and she realised that she loved him and was willing to be with him and then he turns up and aww cheesy.


2.) Thomas and Erin getting married

Hmm ^-^ I just like this one. Nothing else I really have to say, I just like this one

3.) Alyssa with baby Belle-y Boo



Jesus this is really zoomed in in the viewer thing o.O

I just love small Belle. I thought this challenge was gonna be cringey, but it’s not that cringey xD


4.) Alyssa’s ‘naughty’ dream of Adrian


I loved these two together. They had such chemistry (or at least did in my mind) and they really clicked together. There was a definite attraction there and the affair they had being one of those stereotypical office romance affairs. You know the whole “So I wanted to talk to you about this pressing issue *closes door* the issue of your clothes still being on” kinda thing, rather under the radar. It’s what Alyssa needed because Damon was so boring! However, Adrian wasn’t good for her. They were about the same age, so no issue there, but she was more mature mentally than he was (after all, she had three kids by this point)


5.) Bridgeport Hookup


What? I liked these two together


6.) Tyler to the rescue


I like this one because Alyssa’s finally made the right choice when it comes to guys. She’s picked one that’s not a douche and who she has a connection with. She’s lucky he was so hung up on her, otherwise she wouldn’t have gotten a second chance.

7.) Belle and her boyfriend’s first kiss



8.) Toddler Juniper in general

Fuck me she was so fucking cute. Where did we go wrong?

I kid, I kid.

But seriously. I couldn’t pick a favourite. The one with Alyssa and Tyler kissing her, I love because it’s first one. The one with Nate I love because I just love it. The one with the pigeon at the front I love because she wanted to rule over pigeons, the one of her crying I love because her arm felt “squiggly”, the one with Tyler because that’s just after her first vision, the one in the dark because I loved her relationship with Belle. The one of her looking under the bed because that was after her premonition of Belle’s pregnancy (and she was wondering where the baby was hidden). The one adjacent because she looks sassy and the final one because she was confused by the vision and decided to ask Daddy about it.

9.) Ashton and Faye


I put most detail into Faye, she was my favourite spare spouse ^-^ I loved her. I loved how she was fascinated by the human world and I picture her now being a little bit like Sonia Nevermind in a weird way? Like kind of not used to our customs and says weird sayings, but is a really nice person, like a cinnamon roll, and Ashton really loved her which was sweet, and they got over the whole her mum trying to kill his mum thing xD

10.) Alyssa’s wedding (and the fact her parents were watching)


Alyssa finally got her ending, and I loved how Erin and Thomas were watching it all happen ❤


11.) Juniper’s first kiss with Mia


I have so much I want to say here about Mia’s and Juniper’s relationship, but let’s just enjoy the picture, okay? xD

12.) *mastermind voice* Despairingly fateful encounter


When these two met. Ah.  If only she knew that she would one day murder him ❤ but for realsies, I actually liked their relationship before it turned toxic.


13.) Juniper’s and Sam’s relationship

I liked them together. What can I say? I liked them back when they were (probably) prom king and prom queen (Juniper was only prom queen by default) and were ‘relationship goals’ at school. Before things turned nasty.

14.) Lead up to Juniper’s wedding

I felt so bad for Mia. If this was a regular legacy: no roll rules or anything, she and Mia would have ended up together. But, I feel like it makes me overthink, kinda. Because if she ran off with Mia, she would have never married Sam (obviously), never had Roisin and never killed Sam and never met Nick. So, I guess it’s all just I dunno. It’s all in perspective, you know? Chain events and what they lead to. She wouldn’t know what she was missing if she went with Mia, but she doesn’t know what she missed by picking Sam, and likewise so many missed events for the pursuit of the path she’s taken.

15.) Juniper starts to fear Sam


I just like her face, and her hand placement. Like, you can almost see that she’s trying to hide the fact that she’s seen something so awful.

16.) DEATHS!

muchos deadinos. Ripadipdip


17.) Juniper shooting Sam


I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. I always intended for Sam to die. I originally pictured it as Juniper being innocent and Sam getting killed by someone else (my original plan for Melancholia fun fact she was going to kill Sam and no one would believe a fairy did it), but then I was like “what if…?” and voila murdering Juniper and abusive Sam (mostly so she’d have more of a motive to do it)


18.) Juniper and Nick at that wedding

Screenshot-1230I have too many favourite pictures of these two together.

19.) The Juniper Buckingham reveal


she looks lowkey evil in this, like a proper serial killer, and I love it.

20.) Juniper and Juniper


I do feel so bad putting both Junipers through this (especially older Juniper) but it is what it is, I’m afraid. She’ll always wish she kept Juniper I think, deep down that is, but that’s just not how her life played out sadly :c

21.) The morning after…

Screenshot-3504I think I just like how awkward this is, and how he was focusing very intensely on the ceiling, and she was focusing on his face (or at least shoulders and above), and this is how it kinda all started out with them being more than just friends.


DRSE section!


I miss them all being alive and no one being dead :c

2.) Octavia bringing Ricky to his knees in the first trial

Not even gonna sugar coat it, she was one of my favourites and I was almost heartbroken when she came up to be killed. It makes sense for someone to want to kill her (as she is the Ultimate Debater after all), but I still love her and how badass she is.

3.) When Elettra was scared and spent the night in Mikey’s room


I just think any moments when he’s comforting her is sweet because she’s badass a tough cookie and doesn’t want people seeing her upset, so idk I think it’s sweet how she’ll let him see her upset but no one else really. She trusts him with that.

4.) Helen comforting Masae after Kasem died


I like their unusual relationship ^-^ Like Masae’s really outgoing and Helen’s really quiet and I just like the contrast between them. I feel like they help each other be better. Helen’s taught Masae to listen more and be a little quieter at times, whereas Masae help Helen become more confident

5.) Melissa’s and Octavia’s relationship and their underwater kiss


Again, I just love these two together ❤ it made me so upset when Tavi died, and ugh. I think Melissa blames herself a lot for Octavia’s death, even though she wouldn’t want her to, just because of how preventable it was (they had an argument just before Tavi died, and if she had just stayed in her room with her and not gotten so wound up…)

I don’t think Melissa’s really been swimming all too much after the second trial.

6.) The third motive

this was my favourite motive by far. Even though it took a lot of work from me, I loved it. I loved it in the game too and how it like just broke people (aka you know who if you played the original game)

7.) Bonnie’s break down at the end of the third trial

Bonnie… Ah. They didn’t deserve what had happened. It was all in an act of self defence, and they killed the victim because if they didn’t, they would have been killed instead (granted they could have just broke free and ran off…). I feel bad for them, but I guess wrong place at the wrong time

8.) When Aries was outted as the spy.Screenshot-3414.jpg

the reasons why she became a spy were to protect herself and her family, which is sad because her pride kept her from telling everyone straight out about what was going on (that and if she did, she figured it would only end negatively for her and for her family).

9.) The death of Steve

Screenshot-3747True despair!

10.) This picture

Screenshot-3929I’m not sure if they’ve noticed it and are staying quiet, or if they haven’t yet, but there’s something somewhat significant about this picture that neither Carys nor Owly have spotted. I kinda hope it stays that way though


This was so fucking long. I’m sorry. In my defence for the Matthews bit, how can I choose 5 pictures from about 150+ chapters?!

And with DRSE, I have so many pictures for that too. It’s like impossible to choose!


But thank you so much for reading all this, I appreciate it, and thank you for nominating me ^-^

Seeing as though I’m kinda late to the party, anyone who sees this, consider yourself nominated ^-^

Chapter 3.46 Long Time

“Oh, hey.”


“It’s been a while, hasn’t it? I know it may not feel that long but I guess it’s been quite a while, huh?”



“I bet you probably hate me for how long it’s been. I am sorry for that. I really didn’t mean for this to happen, like I didn’t want this to happen! I just…Things have been manic for me these past few years.”



“Not a bad manic! No, no. No, no, no. No, in fact, I think these past few years have been the best few years of my life. I don’t wanna sound all cheesy and crap, leave that to the husband,”


“Oh come on, we both know you’re cheesy as fuck. Deal with it.”



“Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, it’s been a good few years. Wait, what? You seem surprised at… Oh! That’s right. You don’t know, do you? I guess it really has been a long time, hasn’t it? I guess I better start explaining myself.”



“So, yeah. Me and Nick are married. We’ve not been married all too long actually, only about six months now, I think? Yeah, about six months. But, that’s kinda telling you the latest thing, or second latest thing, that’s happened. It’ll make more sense if I go from the start.”



“First of all, we finally got a cat together. Her name’s Luna and she’s a rescue. It’s a funny story actually, she ended up being an accidental birthday present. Nick didn’t know what to get me, and he found Luna in a box abandoned by someone when she was only a few weeks old. One of her legs wasn’t in a very good state so she had to have it amputated, but she’s still fine. She’s still a sweet cat. Well, I say sweet but she’s pretty stubborn and bossy, but hey. But yeah, he found her on my birthday and he was at the vet’s with her for quite a while so he was pretty late and we had dinner reservations. I was so ready to yell at him for being late, but then he showed me this tiny, tiny kitten and you know, you can’t stay angry in those circumstances.”


“We’ve got another cat now as well, Jinx. She’s a rescue too, also missing one of her legs. I’ve mentioned often that we should get another cat so the girls don’t get confused and think that cats only have three legs, but I guess for now we’ll stick with our two cats. Well, I’ve tried to convince Nick, but he seems pretty sure on only having two cats. We’ll probably have three sooner or later, I’m very persuasive.”



“Anyway, I’m going off topic. We only got Jinx very recently, in the last few months. Soon after getting Luna, I found out that I was pregnant with our daughter, Aisling. She’s about three now and I can already tell she’s going to be a smart one. Probably got that from my mom and dad, skipped a generation or something because she didn’t get it from either me or Nick. It was kind of weird having a baby so soon into our relationship, I mean Nick and I had only been dating for about a year before we found out about her, and so that was kinda tricky but hey. We’re a strong team together.”



“Well, I guess we’ve been raising kids together from the start, haven’t we? So, I guess another isn’t…” “Anyway. Aisling. Yeah, she’s great. I love her to pieces. She’s so smart and so curious about everything. It’s fun watching the kids develop and seeing the people they turn out to be. Roisin’s really taken a liking for art. I’ll often catch her drawing, and sometimes Nick’ll help her out if she can’t draw something right. Lainey’s really sporty. She goes ice skating, she’s on a baseball team, she’s on a soccer team, she’s so active and just loves almost every kind of sport.”



“I uhm, I see Juniper… Too. Sometimes, not too often. I-I don’t want to intrude, but yeah. I still see her kinda often. She looks a lot like me…”



“Me and Nick got engaged shortly after Aisling was born, and we’ve moved place too. We’ve got a proper house now, not just my flat. It was a bit cramped, five of us in a three bedroom flat. Roisin and Lainey are still sharing their room. There is another room, and Roisin was in it for a while, but Lainey wanted bunk beds and Roisin mostly sleeps in Lainey’s room with her. It’s sweet how close they are, but I do worry that Aisling’s going to feel somewhat left out. I know they won’t ever do that, but I still worry.”



“I still see Sarah, and she comes over sometimes with Joe and her little girl Alice. It’s kinda weird hearing the name Alice on a regular basis, after all, that was Sam’s mom’s name. But yeah, Roisin and Joe are still really close. Me and Sarah often joke about Roisin and Joe getting married one day. I wouldn’t be surprised, I’ve seen things about it.”



“And, just to put forward, but about that thing you know, to do with my past life? No development, thankfully. Although I’ve seen rather… Scary things, nothing has come from it.”



“So, yeah. We got married about six months ago, and we got Jinx. Everything’s good. Everything’s happy and everything’s fine. For probably the first time in a long time, everything’s been fine. I, uhm, there’s actually something I kinda wanted to mention. I mean, it’s okay now to tell people. It just feels kinda, I dunno. I’m not quite used to telling people still, I’ve only been able to tell people for a short time now.”



“So, I’ve been working at a restaurant for a while now, general manager, and the owners bought this new place and I’m taking over that one, and they wanted me to have quite a large say in how it was decorated and stuff, so that’s kind of been like my baby for a while, I’ve been overseeing a lot of the development, but I won’t really be able to spend too much time there unfortunately because of another project, another thing for me to oversea and be in charge of. Another baby for me.”



“Or, I should  probably say babies to be more precise. You’ve probably already noticed, I’m showing quite a bit sooner than before, I guess double the usual occupancy. We had been trying for a while, almost for a year, and nothing had really been happening so we kinda stopped for a while. I guess it’s like that phrase, a watched dog never shits, you know?”

“I don’t think that’s the saying.”

“You get the point though, y’know? If you sit and wait for something to happen it won’t happen, so it’s kinda like when we stopped worrying about it, it happened. Twice. Kinda.”



“So, yeah. I guess that’s it. All caught up. I don’t think there’s much more to say really, apart from I’m happy to see you again. I have really missed you, but things have just been hectic. Hectic, but amazing. But, I’m going to get better at sharing things with you, being more frequent. I want to tell you my story as it happens.”


AN: So, I wanted to do a timeskip for two reasons

1.) This generation is getting really long, and I am somewhat concerned about still writing about Juniper when I’m 30, so I figured it’s probably best to speed stuff up slightly

2.) I was feeling kinda unmotivated to write all the stuff that happened above. Mostly because it all felt kinda filler-y and I don’t think it’d be all too exciting to read tbh. Just cheesy and fluffy

So, timeskip!

also 3.) I lost my main CC database so I have next to no clue what’s actually in my game, so I figured it’d be smart to get rid of at least all the furniture and build from the top again, you know? So, that’s what I’m gonna do. Also Melynx also inspired me when she redid up her sims’ house so I just wanna build and decorate and make a really cute house ^-^

I know some people may be disappointed by this time skip, but I wanted to do it, mostly because even though I love Juniper and Nick together, I want to speed this generation up slightly. I mean, I’ll have spent 2 years on it in October, and that’s a hella long time for one generation.

Chapter 3.45 It’s Nice We’re Not Naked Now

There was another body in the bed as Juniper woke up.


Based on the fact it was her room, she couldn’t just up and walk out and pretend it never happened. The only option she could think of at that time was to close her eyes, rest her head back down where it was, and pretend she never woke up until he wakes up and sneaks out. It wasn’t like she minded sharing her bed either, he was warm to cuddle up to, and it made her feel weirdly safe being this close to him.

It was weird because this shouldn’t be happening. Nick was her best friend, she shouldn’t be waking up mostly naked in bed with her best friend.


What they did felt like a hazy memory, one which she had conflicting emotions about. She had seen that they ended up happily together but part of her was worried still about if she forced it when he wasn’t ready, would it all just break? It was a risk she wanted to take, but one she wasn’t ready to take. She felt him stir awake and she quickly closed her eyes, pretending to be asleep. Maybe if he took the initiative and sneaked out then her queries would be answered.

As he woke up too, he recognised the room and could clearly remember what happened. She was sad, he comforted her, there was weird tension, they kissed, fucked and then fell asleep. It was probably something they should talk about. “June?” He asked, knowing she was awake. He wasn’t stupid, he could tell that she was faking. “June?” He tried again, yet she was being stubborn. “Juniper.” Using her full name, he didn’t wait as long before continuing. “I know you’re awake, stupid.”


Glancing up at him, she gave him an awkward smile. “Morning.”

“We need to talk.” He looked down at her for a split second before his attention focused on the ceiling. He wasn’t sure what exactly to make of what had happened. It was weird because they could have stopped at any time, re-evaluate the situation and decide it’s not the best thing to do, but they didn’t.

“Yeah, I guess we kinda do need to.” She agreed. “We should probably put actual clothes on as well, so we can actually, you know, look at each other without seeing… Things.” She mumbled, getting off of him.


“I can agree to that.” He mumbled, his gaze focused hard on the ceiling like it was the most important thing he has ever seen. Even though he was extremely tempted to glance down to his right, he didn’t because that wasn’t the right thing to do, and he knew she’d be extremely pissed off at him if he did.

In the time he was focusing hard on the ceiling, she had managed to locate some clothes to put on and tossed his clothes over to him too, to make this whole ordeal slightly less awkward.


There was a long, tense, awkward silence as neither of them knew what exactly to say.

“So…” Juniper started, never having been in this situation. “It’s nice that we’re both not completely naked now, I guess.” Smiling awkwardly, she regretted what she said as soon as she said it.

He gave her a look, and then sighed slightly. “Yeah, fantastic.” Taking a moment, he then pointed out. “I’m not really sure where this leaves us, or if it changes anything. Does is change anything?”


 “Do we want anything to change?” She asked quietly, sitting on the bed at the same time as he did.

“I don’t know.” He confessed, sighing heavily. “I don’t know.” Repeating, he mumbled. “It feels way too early to talk about this.”

“It does, but I don’t want us to be all awkward and junk for ages while we have breakfast and a coffee.” She pointed out. “I mean, I’m not great at making conversation when I’m uncomfortable as it is, let alone postponing it and more awkward sentences like the one I said earlier.”


“That’s a good point, I don’t want a variation of ‘it’s nice that we’re not naked now’.” Letting out a single laugh, he used humour to hide how awkward he felt. He stayed quiet for a while before asking. “What do you want? From this I mean?” He asked, glancing over at her.

She merely shrugged in response. “I dunno. I mean, we’re really good friends, like best friends. The closeness where if we were both eight, we would have friendship bracelets.” Juniper started, but soon stopped as she said this.

Nick took this opportunity to add humorously. “We can get each other bracelets if you want. If we keep this up, we can get each other special best friend bracelets.”


Narrowing her eyes at him, she grumbled and smiled somewhat bitterly. “I feel like you’re not taking this seriously.”

“I am, I am. Sorry. Serious Nick from now on, okay?” He reassured her. “Anyway, you were saying about how we’re close?”

“Yeah, we are close, and I don’t want to throw that away and make things weird if the possibility of us doesn’t work out.” She made her concerns known, frowning as she did so.

“Well, have you seen anything about us? Whether we work out or not if we do try?” He asked, figuring that would be a clearer answer.


Hesitating slightly, she explained. “It’s not that clear cut. See, my visions don’t always come true. Everything is kind of like, well, you know when there are weird TV episodes where the main guy goes into the past and sits on a butterfly or something small and then the future is really messed up? It’s kinda like that. Everything I do or what others do alters the future. For example, before we broke up, I saw a vision about me and Daniel being together. Granted, it wasn’t very nice, but it was still something and it’s pretty clear that won’t happen. And I know you’re probably thinking that if I just tell you the good stuff I’ve seen then it’ll be fine but that’s not it. If I do that, then you’ll be with me because you think that’s how it’s supposed to be and not really because you want to.”


“Right, so we’re gonna have to talk about feelings and stuff, aren’t we?” He mumbled, not especially wanting to do that.

“Yep. Feelings and all that junk.” She agreed, sighing slightly as she did so. “Who’s going to start?”

“Well, ladies first.” He gave that excuse, smirking slightly as he did so.


Rolling her eyes, Juniper took it upon herself to go first. “Alright then.” Staying quiet for a while, she thought of how to phrase it. “I do like you, as in more than a friend like you, but I love having you as a friend, and I don’t know what I’d do without you, so I don’t want to mess that up.”

“So, do you want us to stay friends or…?” Nick asked, trailing off as he did so.



“I dunno, what do you want?” She asked in response, not so sure where to go. The only boyfriends she’s had started off romantically. She’s never really been friends with someone before dating them.

“I would like us to be more than friends but-” He started, but was soon interrupted.

“But what?”


“But the way you were acting yesterday about Sam, I just, I don’t know.” It was bothering him slightly, as he didn’t want them to try dating, only for her to still be in love with her ex-husband.

“You’re concerned I’m still in love with him?” She asked in response, and his silence spoke volumes. “There will always be a part of me that loves Sam, just like how I know there’ll always be a part of you that loves Elle, but I think that how I felt yesterday was a mix of me missing him, but mostly hating how everything felt so… Stagnant. Like, how I’ve been here for so long and I feel like the only good thing come from me moving here has been you.”


The corners of his mouth twitched up into a smile as she said that. Changing the subject slightly, he asked out of interest. “Hey, remember when we first met?”

“Yeah, I remember. You were such a dick.” She commented honestly as she stood. “I hated you. Hated. I felt so pissed off that Roisin decided to be friends with Lainey.” She couldn’t help but find it somewhat amusing that they only started talking and tolerating each other because of their daughters. Did that mean that their daughters technically set them up?

“I hated you too. I thought that you thought you were better than what you actually were.” Grinning as he said that, he then added as he stood also. “I dunno, I just think it’s funny how far we’ve come since then. We tolerated each other, then liked each other, hated each other for a bit, liked each other and now…”


“Now we’re stood here talking about whether or not we should be a couple.” She finished his sentence, smiling slightly. “Imagine if the versions of us when we first met saw us now.”

“They’d be so disappointed in us.” Laughing as he said this, he then went back to the topic at hand. “So, what are we going to do? Because I think I’d prefer us to be more than just friends.”


“I think I’d prefer that too.” She agreed, giving him a somewhat sheepish smile. “It’s going to be really weird being in a relationship with you. I mean, it’s you. Nick. Room mate Nick, Lainey’s dad Nick.” She mumbled.

“I know, dating psychic Juniper, Roisin’s mom, know-it-all Juniper who I have to call Jennifer in public.”

“Hey, I am not a know it all.” Sneering slightly, she rolled her eyes. “So, we’re really doing this, huh?”


“I guess we are, yeah.” He wasn’t sure what else to say. This conversation felt somewhat awkward but probably because things between them were changing.

“Should we like, kiss or something? I feel like that’s the thing to do.” She mumbled, but then added. “But now I feel like I’ve kinda ruined the moment by asking if we should do it.”


“I think we should still do it anyway despite you wrecking the moment.” He added the last bit teasingly. “So, should we just like, go for it?” He asked.

“I think so.” She replied, giving a somewhat sheepish smile.


The two of them spent a short time looking at each other, seemingly building up courage to do what they were about to do. Tentatively, moving closer, their lips locked in a soft kiss.

It wasn’t the first kiss they shared, nor would it be their last, but this one felt different.

It felt right, as if it was meant to be.



Finally properly together oh my wow.

So, a timeline because I’m sad/interested on how long Nick and June have been like a thing

Juniper has her first vision of Nick on 29.10.15 (they’re in UK date format. Day.Month.Year)
So, we first met Nick properly 30.3.16
They made friends the next day xD
He moved in 27.05.16 (which is funny because that means they’ve been living together (or at least had first moved in) for over a year before finally acting on their feelings xD)
They went to a wedding together 17.6.16
He got in contact with Elle again 6.7.16 and moved out on 6.8.16
He moved back in on 2.9.16 and that’s when she properly started dating Daniel
She told him about her being psychic and about her killing Sam on 30.9.6
She told him the whole story about being Juniper and her killing Sam on 22.10.16 and he also mentioned about his past then too
(there was a cute Xmas special on 21.12.16 lmao)
He found out about Daniel and did not approve on 5.2.17
Juniper found out she was pregnant again on 19.2.17 and broke up with Daniel then
Juniper had Juniper Jr on 1.5.17 and was done with Daniel for good then too
They first properly kissed on 28.5.17
And they started dating today 😀 29.5.17

Wooow so much has happened

Just for the record, things are gonna move slightly faster (it’s about time we got a wriggle on, am I right?) from now on because I’ve got something awesome planned for chapter 50 😀

I’m excited and happy, is anyone else feeling this way? 😀

Chapter 3.44 One Thousand Eight Hundred and Twenty Six

“Smile for the camera Lain.”


Lainey grinned at her daddy, anxious to go though. It was her first ever day at big kid school! She was excited! Quite a few of her friends started earlier, but because she was younger, she started school later on.

Nick gave Lainey a smile in return, making sure to get plenty of pictures. It felt weird that she was going to school, based on the fact she’s not even five yet. She was going to be one of the youngest in her year, and it was kind of sad that she wasn’t going to be in the same school year as Roisin, who was going to be one of the eldest in her school year.


“I wanna go! Come on!” Stomping her foot, Lainey was getting sick of the pictures. She wanted to go to school already!

Sighing heavily, Nick took a moment as he watched Lainey. It felt like yesterday he and Elle found out they were having a girl, and now she was off to school. It made him feel old, or at least older than what he actually was. “Alright, but you’re having more pictures at school.” He gave her advanced warning, and she pouted.

“Daddy…” She whined, giving him a look.

“What-ty?” He asked in the same manner, grinning at her as he took her hand and they walked out of the apartment.


Today was a bad day, or at least it was a day that Juniper had bad feelings about. Today just wasn’t a good day.

Fiddling with the necklace, Juniper sighed heavily. Today was the type of day where all she wanted to do was go to sleep and pretend like this day isn’t a real day.

Usually, anniversaries are nice occasions. Happy. This would have been a happy one if it wasn’t for other circumstances.


When she left her bedroom, she saw Roisin looking at the front door with a frown. “What’s up sweetie?” Juniper asked, bending down to Roisin’s height.

“I wanna go too.” She whined, pouting at her mommy. “Why can’t I go?” It wasn’t fair. Roisin wanted to go too! School sounded exciting and fun!

“You’re too little, baby. You’re going to have to wait until next year.” Juniper explained, but saw that Roisin was fascinated by her necklace.


“Pretty.” Roisin smiled, reaching for the charm on her necklace. “I have it now?”

“One day you can have it.” Juniper gave her a sad smile, knowing that when Roisin was older, she’d know the truth about everything.

“Daniel bought it?” Roisin asked, remembering he bought mommy and herself a lot.


“We’re not talking to him, remember?” Juniper asked, frowning as she did so. She did not need to be reminded of her adopted child’s father today.

“Right, right.” Roisin mumbled, and then smiled. “Good.” Following up with that, she asked. “Who bought it?”

Juniper thought for a moment, wondering how to say it and whether or not she should mention Sam. However, she knew that it she opened that door, she wouldn’t be able to close it again. Smiling softly, she excused. “One of mommy’s boyfriends a long time ago.” As far as Roisin was aware, Nick was daddy, and if she started talking about Sam being daddy, not only would it confuse her but she didn’t know how to end that conversation once starting it.


“Can I be friends?” Roisin asked, smiling. The only one of mommy’s boyfriends she met was Daniel, and he was okay but not great. She wanted to meet more and see what they were like.

Juniper shook her head softly, frowning. “Sorry baby, you can’t. I don’t talk to him anymore. He’s not very nice.”

“Oh, okay.” Roisin answered, frowning slightly. She didn’t like him now if he wasn’t nice but he made mommy happy so she could put up with him. “Play now?”

Grinning, Juniper nodded. “Sure, let’s play now.” She had the day off of college and had nothing else on for the day, so there wasn’t anything major to even distract her.


It wasn’t too long before Nick came back after dropping off Lainey for her first day of school. It made him feel weird to think that she was old enough. Well, she was barely old enough. Going around the corner, he noticed Juniper and Roisin were playing together. Part of him didn’t want to interrupt, but when she smiled at him, he went over.

“Did you take plenty of pictures?” She asked, seeing the camera in his hands.

“Yeah… I think I pi- annoyed her.” He was about to use profanity, but remembered that Roisin had a habit of repeating words she found fun to say.


Raising an eyebrow at him, Juniper was pleased that he managed to stop in time. She too could remember the day one of them swore in front of Roisin, and how she repeated the word ‘fuck’ for almost the entire day (Roisin liked that word because it sounded like duck). “You’ll have to show me them later.” She smiled at him, still paying attention to Roisin though.

“When it’s less weird to think that I have a daughter at school then I will.” Mumbling as he sat down with them, his attention also turned to Roisin as he asked her. “You’re going to stay little forever, right? And you’re not going to go to school and you’ll stay with me?” He asked, grinning at her.


“Yeah.” Roisin went over to her daddy and cuddled with him. “Love you.”

“I love you too.” Nick grinned back, cuddling her. “Don’t ever grow up, okay?”

“Okay.” Roisin responded obediently.

Even though it was sweet, Juniper felt guilty. The four of them, almost like a little family, it made her think. Specifically, it made her think about how things would be if she was still married to Sam. Well, would she even still be married to him or would he have killed her by now? Five years would be an awfully long time for a psychopath to wait.


There was a large part of her screaming about how wrong this was, almost rueful and mourning of what could have been. What should have been. Herself, Sam, Roisin, maybe even another one. Maybe. Maybe she could have spoken to him. Maybe they could have resolved their issues peacefully. Maybe he would have ditched the plan. She had seen visions of herself and Sam when they were old, so it was a possibility. At some point in time, that was what was going to happen. But…

She ruined it.

“Are you alright?” Giving her a concerned look, Nick asked this as Roisin went off to play with the doll house. Juniper looked as if she was going to burst out crying at any given moment.


“Huh? Yeah, I’m fine. I’m totally fine.” Her voice choked slightly as she held back the urge to cry. “I uhm… I think I just want some time alone today.”

“Did something happen?” He asked. Often, she would email or text Anthony and Lukas to see how baby Juniper was doing, and it often didn’t end in a good way. The other day she got a video of the baby managing to sit up on her own, and then falling back down after, and Juniper couldn’t take it. “Do you want to talk about it? I don’t think emailing them is too great of an idea if you keep getting this upset by it.” He knew it was hard for her, and knew that she wanted to see pictures, but he didn’t see the worth if it was upsetting her this much.

Sighing softly, she knew he would mention that. “Look, I promise I’ll be fine again tomorrow. It’s just today… it’s not a good day. It’s nothing to do with the emails. I just need to be left alone today and to just think.”


The hesitation was clear as day on his face, wanting to say that he didn’t want her to but also realising that it must be a bad day. He tried to think about what could be bothering her if it wasn’t to do with the baby, but nothing came to mind. “You’d tell me if it was something really bad bothering you, right?”

“Right.” She agreed, and then sighed slightly. “I… It’s nothing to do with Juniper, I just wanna have kind of a quiet day today. ” She mumbled, standing up and heading into her bedroom.


So it was a quiet day. Not much happened. Juniper mostly kept to herself while Nick did some work from home and kept Roisin occupied before picking Lainey up from her first day of school.

There was a knocking sound on her door, and she looked over to see Nick there. “Hey, I just wanted to check that you were alright.”


Giving a small smile, she nodded. “I’m fine.” Moving the book she had away, she then asked. “Do you need me for something or did you just want to check up on me?”

“I was just gonna check up but what’s in that?” He asked, looking over at what she was looking at. He could make out that it was a photo album.

“It’s nothing.” She excused, moving it further away.

“Nothing? Just a photo album filled with empty pages and you were admiring the nothingness?” He asked, giving her a look.


“Yep. Precisely.” Nodding in response, she smiled at him. There was a silence as he continued his doubtful look and it became evident that he wasn’t going to leave until she told him what it was. “It’s my wedding album.” She mumbled.

“Seriously? I didn’t think you had that.” Surprised by that answer, he was expecting it to be something to do with Roisin, not that.

Nodding, she answered quietly. “Yeah. I took this just in case I wanted it. I saw it in the study as I left and I knew I wanted to keep it, I didn’t want to leave it in that house.” Her attention was on the album, not looking back at Nick who was walking into her room.


“You can’t just drop that piece of information and not expect me to be curious.” He pointed out, grinning as he did so. Picking up the album and sitting next to her, he let her open it as she explained what things were.

“Well, that’s me and Mia, who was my best friend. She was my maid of honour at my wedding.” Juniper began rather dryly, not really wanting to talk about it. “She was pretty drunk.”

“Geez, you look so young in it.” He pointed out, looking at her and then back at the picture with a slight grin. It’s weird to imagine her blonde. “It’s weird seeing you with your natural hair colour. I’m used to pastel variations of every colour under the sun.” He commented, and then furrowed his eyebrows when he noticed writing on it. “What does that say?”


Laughing once, Juniper explained. “Mia was trying to be funny. It says ‘I know your mommy is keeping you a secret but auntie Mia loves you’, and then she rambles off about something else I can’t quite make out, I see Belle’s name in there I think? She wrote it when she was drunk, and I don’t think she knew about it either. I didn’t know at the time, but she and my other friend Brie were betting on whether it was a shotgun wedding or not; Mia betting that it was. I wouldn’t have found out if it wasn’t for Mia telling me when she had a bit too much to drink. I know she didn’t remember though because for a good three or four months after the wedding she kept hinting at her suspicion that it was a shotgun wedding.”

“She sounds cool.” Nick grinned. The only thing he really knew about Mia was that she hated Juniper’s husband who killed her, and that she was Juniper’s best friend. Apart from that, he knew next to nothing so it was nice to at least put a name to the face. “I think I would have liked her.”


“I think she would’ve liked you, or at least approved of you.” Smiling slightly in return, she recalled the conversation that she had with Mia a while ago. “Which is saying something because she’s hard to impress.” That, and the fact that Mia had a crush on Juniper, well, she probably wouldn’t have approved of all too many guys.

“That’s good to know, I guess.” Turning the page, he stumbled across a picture of her and Sam together. Feeling a lot more awkward, Nick wasn’t so sure what to say about it. Why did he feel so awkward about seeing her with her ex? Was he jealous? No, that’s stupid. But still, even though he felt awkward looking at it, it almost felt like he couldn’t take his eyes away. From the picture, it looked like she really loved him but he wasn’t sure if he could tell if Sam felt the same way from what he saw. It felt weird seeing her like that, it was odd. The two women; the two Junipers, they were like two completely different people. Only, he wasn’t sure which version of her seemed more real. Did she still have feelings for her ex-husband? A large part of him selfishly hoped not.


Closing the album, he noticed the date on the back cover, and that it was today’s date five years ago. “It’s your anniversary.” He pointed out the obvious.

“Five years.” Sighing heavily, the image of her happy with Sam was burned into her mind. If only she could have that back, the happiness she felt then. “It’s kind of scary how fast time can go by.” She mentioned, somewhat idly as she got up and placed the album back in a drawer.

“Is that why you’ve been upset today?” Nick followed up, looking at her as he did so.


Staying quiet for a long time, she sighed heavily before nodding. “Yeah.” As she fiddled with the necklace she was wearing, her attention was fixed on the floor. “I know you probably think it’s stupid, me getting so bothered by this, but I just…” Looking down, Juniper mumbled a response as she sat back with Nick. “I miss him.”

She was expecting him to call her stupid for missing him, which was why she was surprised when he understood. “I get that. I get the same way about Elle sometimes. It’s stupid because it didn’t work out first or second time but still. I guess it’s different though because if I wanted I could just talk to her, not like I would want to but I could.”


“I get your point but it’s not much comfort when I know I’m going to die alone.” Juniper said outright, sighing heavily.

“Oh come on June, don’t be stupid.” Nick argued in response. “You know that’s not true.”

“Isn’t it? Okay, so think of this: I’ve had my one chance at love, and that’s already ended. Now that’s over, what next? More relationships like the ones I’ve tried? I don’t especially feel like going through all that again.”


“You do realise that we’re people and not the animals on Noah’s ark, right? We don’t all just have one person each and if we do, then I guess I’m dying alone too then because I’ve already had mine.”

“Elle doesn’t count. She’s a bitch. You’ve still got your chance. Me on the other hand? I’ve blown it. I had my chance, I’ve had my love, now it’s gone and I’m going to die alone.”

“So Elle was a bitch but Sam was a completely nice and perfect guy? Don’t be so stupid June. He was an ass, I can’t believe it’s possible but he’s even worse than Elle. There’s still someone out there who’ll love you and who’ll love Roisin. You’re too young to start adopting cats.” Teasing slightly at the end, he looked over at her as he said this. Even if his feelings for her never became more than just feelings, there was a part of him that would be fine with that as long as she was happy. That’s what he wanted most: to see her happy.


“I hope so.” She mumbled quietly, looking to the floor as she did so. After a beat, she looked up at him and spoke again. “Somewhere out there, there’s got to be someone for each of us. Two people who like kids and treat ours as their own. People who we can trust with anything. People who we care deeply for, to the point of caring too much for friends.”

“People who might not be that far away.” He chimed in.

There was a long pause, the air seeming the hang in the weirdly tense room. They were both looking at each other, seemingly entranced.


It was an unexpected occurrence. One which, on the grand spectrum of things, was bound to happen but the timing was unexpected. It’s difficult to know when exactly things like this happen as the world is full of so many variables.

There is no determined cause and straight forward effect. Every conversation and answered question creates a new fork in the probability path. Maybe if he had answered no to her question a month ago about if pasta would be alright for dinner, this may not have happened for another year. Maybe if she had enquired further about his current photo shoot two years ago, they would already be together.

The world and all it’s inhabitants are based on coincidences and mishaps. Correspondences and links.


Liebster Award! -Take Two

So, based on the fact that it’s been over 2 years (and it was still gen 2 the last time I did this) I decided to make a new post. That, and I’ve been nominated twice now so I feel like it would be bad of me to just stick it on the end -4/10 would recommend doing that.

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I feel like I needed a meme but I couldn’t find one so here.

The Rules:

–Say thank you to the person who has nominated you for the award.
– Answer the 11 questions the person has asked you.
– Nominate people (comment on their blog to let them know).
– Ask the people you have nominated 11 questions

So, I was nominated by loladiamond01 and Violincat, thank you very much and I love how I’m getting nominations from people outside of the RLC family ❤ it makes me happy ^-^

EDIT (I learned how to  do this lmao why did wordpress change?! ;-; ): I’ve also been nominated by Nocriel, I need to catch up on their blog actually, I feel kinda bad. Also Owly nominated me too, oh gosh aren’t I popular? xD

So, my nominations are (and I’m sorry in advance that there won’t be tons, I’m kinda out of reading others’ stories, too much school work! >.<):

1.) Twinsimskeletons and their SOL legacy

2.) Owl Face and their Clover and a Bee legacy (where she nearly fuckin’ killed her main character the gosh darn mad woman)

3.) Heatherfeather19 and her Diffy Legacy 

4.) Melynx and her Chaos Theory legacy

5.) Urunwa and her Sleitinn Legacy

I dunno who else sorry xD I need to read more people’s stuff and catch up on everyone’s things but alas, where is the time? ;~;

Anyway, questions!

Loladiamond01’s questions:

Is there any song you are addicted to right now? If so, then what is it?

I’m currently in love with Hypnotic by Zella Day. I think I just love the Melanie Martniez vibe

Do you prefer to work in the silence or do you put on music when you write?

I like background sound and music while I write, especially if I’m writing a scene I need a particular mood for

Do you prefer writing about female or male characters? Why?

Female purely because of the fact I am female so… Yeah

What length is your hair?

About collarbone length-ish. I want it to be longer though :c if I have my fake hair in then it’s longer xD

Do you like reading? If so, do you prefer short books or longer stories?

I do but my attention span has literally just plummeted :c I prefer reading scripts and plays because they just get to the point, y’know? xD

How long have you been writing about your sims’ lives?

It’ll be 4 years (!!!!!!!! wtf!!!!) in December (the 1st to be exact. All my generations have started on the 1st of a month. I remember I had to wait to October 1st because last chapter of Gen 2 was on September 1st)

Do you prefer staging your story or going with the flow and seeing what happens in game? I’m not asking which one you do, just which one feels better to do and satisfies you more.

Staging I prefer and do, but I like gameplay ones, but my laptop can’t really handle that and all the CC I have xD

Do you consider yourself a perfectionist?

No xD I like things being good but I do get to a “oh that’s good enough” state if I’ve been workin’ on something for too long

A pool or the sea? Or you don’t like water?

Sea because pools wreck hair and pools are weirdly warm and I feel like that warmth is pee >.< at least in the ocean it’s relaxing and there’s the current and if it’s warm it’s because of the sun, y’know?

Which one do you like more- warm or cold weather?

It depends. If I’m doing nothing and outside then warm. If I’m doing things then cold.

What is your dream job?

Honestly? I don’t know. I think… Ah I don’t know. I just don’t know. I feel like I don’t dream as much as I used to which is sad, but hey.


Violincat’s Questions

What’s the last song you’ve listened to?

Technically, because I’ve got the Harry Styles Carpool Karaoke on, it’s Sweet Creature by him xD

Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Well, it’s currently 7:03 and I’m awake and doing this so… Early bird xD

Name three of your favorite books?

Oh gosh, I don’t even know. I’ve not read anything in so long >.<

How old were you when you had your first crush?

I think I was in Y2, which means I was about 7? Yeah, about 7

Every single person you’ve ever had a crush on shows up at your place one day. What do you do?

Probably do some maths because majority of them do maths xD For realsies though, I dunno. It would be kinda surprising because I have random 1 day crushes on people lmao

Craziest situation that ever happened to you?

I had a pencil go through my arm. That was pretty wild

If you could change one thing about the world right now, what would it be?

Lessen all the hate. There’s too much in the world. As well as that, I would make education easier, especially here. It feels like I constantly have to jump through hoops backwards on a tightrope just to go to somewhere next that’ll give me the hope of achieving something

What is your favorite thing to do after a stressful day?

crying Literally every day is stressful, so I guess just chilling and watching YouTube videos while doing work

What is your favorite saying?

Shit happens

What was the best meal you’ve ever had?

At this restaurant, there was this smoked salmon pasta in creamy tomato sauce it was the best ❤

You’ve won an all-expenses-paid trip for a week for any place in the world. Where would you go?

Ahhh, I don’t know! There’s too many places I wanna see and go to! >.< I wanna go everywhere in the world and see everything! Right now though, I’d pick either New York or Japan


1. Who’s your favoUrite sim?

I feel like it’s Juniper, purely because I know her best, like you could ask me any obscure question about her and I’d probably be able to answer it.
2. Do you stage a lot? How do you do it?
Yep. I stage all the time. I think I do it quite simply, after the set has been built (i.e. June and Nick’s apartment, a coffee shop etc) I pose whoever’s being used and position them, make sure the lighting’s good, and then get a good angle (cropping out/avoiding any issues in the poses if there are any) and then take the picture
3. Is there a roll you’d really hate to play?
Anything that’s too heavy. I don’t like the normal careers, purely because they irritate me and I dunno. The Matthews have a lot of money so I don’t really need the careers if that makes sense?
4. How about a roll you’d love to play?
I LOVE the second chance roll, purely because of how different you can make it, and the different reasons for breaking up. That and I dunno, I don’t want a couple to be together forever because (and this may just be my scepticism) what’s the chance of being with someone forever? You’re bound to find someone new or get bored.
5. What is your favoUrite Sims EP and why is it Pets?
I do actually quite like Pets, I like how you can focus on horses and make that a career, also I like the li’l animals you can like collect.
6. What parts of yourself as a person in real life do you recogniSe in your sims (personality, experiences, appearance or whatever) or your story in general? Don’t say nothing, I’m convinced there’s always a little bit of yourself in your sims! 😛
Juniper definitely has my sharp tongue and sarcasm, only she’s much more open with it. I am as sharp tongued and sarcastic as she is, but I tend to not express it (and even though I’m rather hot-headed, I get flustered when I’m angry). I feel like I somewhat relate to Alyssa also: slutty and smart 😛
Also, the character development I’m planning for Roisin right now is rather me (which is rather similar to Junie too ngl), like the career which she’s going to have in the story is probably a job I’d love to do, but you’ve gotta be good at art to do that, and I’m shit at art (Roisin’s good at art, very good *nods*).
7. What lifespan do you play your RLC on/how many sim days?
I think I have it on epic? I think?
8. Would you play Sims 3 without any CC or mods?
I would, but I dunno how long it would last purely because I’d miss all my cc ;-;
9. What other games do you play? Do you know Heroes of the Storm (I do not get paid by Blizzard, I’m just curious…)?
Danganronpa ❤ I’m so psyched for NDV3 this autumn! It comes out here like a day or two after my birthday (so I’m gonna basically avoid the entire fanbase for those 2 days lmao because almost everyone will have played it by then, I’ve already spoiled the fifth trial execution which makes me very sad ;-;), and I can’t express how excited I am for that ❤
I’ve never played Heroes of the Storm however
10. What’s a hobby of yours other than gaming/writing?
Uhhh, school? I spend most of my time on it, so…. xD
11. Is eleven questions too many?
That depends on the question length I believe. Long answer essay questions? Yes. Short answer questions? No. It’s open to interpretation I believe.


Owly’s Questions!:

  1. Who’s a historical figure you think is neat? Why?
    I feel like I should have an answer for this, but I dunno. There’s a lot of cool people in history and I can’t exactly choose one. There was a guy, Nate Champion, who kept back a bunch of Cattle Barons in the late 1800’s in America (a town called Buffalo) and he died because they like set his house on fire or some shit, but he gave up his life to save the town, which I think it pretty neat. Also Descartes is a fuckin’ mad man lockin’ ‘imself in a fuckin’ kiln and deciding that nothing exists.
  2.  I’ve invited myself over for dinner. What are your making for me?
    Probably something very lazy because I can never be arsed to cook anything proper. Probably something like chips (which are likely to be slightly undercooked lmao good job I don’t eat meat) with cheese and gravy, or probably something like smoked salmon pasta because I love that, or unicorn shit because it’s so unlikely as why would you visit me for dinner? Like out of all the cool stuff to do in Britain, visiting me for food isn’t up there tbh.
  3. If you were a sim, which neighboUrhood would you like to live in?
    I’d like to live in Bridgeport, or maybe Dragon Valley, I dunno
  4. Who is your favoUrite premade sim? How about your least favoUrite?
    Oh premades, it’s been a while. Uhm, I used to like playing as Agnes Crumplebottom and giving her a nice life and getting her a new husband and giving her a family and shit like that aww aren’t i nice? I didn’t like the Wolff (sp? lmao ironic) family because it’s a different spelling of my last name and I didn’t like their relationship, 12 year old me found it sad.
  5. If you could program a robot to do one task for you so you’d never have to do it again, what would it be? It doesn’t matter how complicated the task is; it just has to be something you could do yourself (so you couldn’t program it to make gold out of water unless you can do that yourself, so no cheating!).
    (who says I can’t make gold out of water??????? don’t underestimate me m8) I’d say tiding of any variety because who likes tiding? It’s tedious
  6. Okay, so now irony kicks in: what do you miss out on by programming the robot to do that task? (ex: you programmed the robot to tuck your children into bed at night, and now your children love the robot more than you)
    Literally, only good thing is when I find like money on the floor. That’s it, but I’d make the robot put the money to the side soooooo *shrugs*
  7. What would you like to improve about your writing, and what do you think you already do well?
    all of it needs improving lmao honestly I’m always worried that people get bored of what I’m writing, or that the way I word things doesn’t always make sense (like this sentence now lmao), it’s something I’ve picked up recently, I try and phrase things more complex but they end up not making sense. I think I do characterisation well? I think doing drama has helped me realise how vital that is tbh (also, small rant, I hate it when people have like these super detailed characters but never show them off? Like why? Like I’ve seen it on tumblr where they answer such detailed backstories, but then all they post are like staged sim selfies? I just don’t get it, if there’s no story then can there be any characters? And if there are no characters, can there be characterisation? I dunno, I guess it’s just something that lowkey irritates me.)
  8. What object from TS3 would you like to have in real life?
    Not technically an object but I’d like how easy it is for them to get jobs and do well in school, so I guess their entire work ethic as an object if that counts? If not, I’d like the time portal or the hover boards in ITF even though I don’t have ITF XD
  9. What’s your vice? You can tell me. I’m cool.
    I love gossip, not gossiping but more just eavesdropping. I like hearing scandalous secrets and bitching which I can use to my disposal if I’m ever in a disagreement with someone. It also makes me happy when I overhear the “popular” people bitching about each other because it’s just so fucking funny how they act like queen bees but no one likes them, not even their friends, and they’re so like reluctant to be seen with anyone else. pfft.
  10. Where’s your favoUrite place to be?
    I dunno to be honest, I like being a lot of places. I like scenic places, but not countryside scenic. Like, I like beaches and cities tbh
  11. Are we–as humans–enacting order in a chaotic universe, or are we enacting chaos in an ordered universe?
    Well, Aquanis (I think) has a theory of Natural Laws, and I don’t exactly know the very specific details, but I do know that they essentially say that order can come out of chaos, and it does kinda make sense. If you locked people in a large enough room (but didn’t give them an incentive to kill each other) with no rules, order will eventually form, so I believe that we create chaos in a world in which we created order by going against the order in which we created.


My questions!:

Who’s your favourite sim?
Favourite film?
Bright lipsticks: Yay or nay? (i’m yay if ur nay fite me)
Uhhhhhhh I’m running out of ideas so: Favourite song?
What got you into writing for sims?
Favourite Holiday (like Easter, May Day, Christmas etc)?
Best trash TV show?
Fast food or healthy stuff: what’s better?
Worst subject at school?
How do you feel right now?
If a tree falls in the woods, and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound? (I did an AS in this, I know the answer :P)

Chapter 3.43 Rockabye

Nick overheard Juniper having a heated discussion with someone on her phone.

“I never said that! Don’t just go putting word in my mouth. I’m saying no because I can. I don’t care! I don’t care! No, I’m not going. Because I said so. You can’t make me.” She stayed quiet for a while before asking in a timid voice. “What?” Another long silence passed and she sighed heavily. “You’ve managed to get one that quick, huh? Okay, I’ll be there.”

Nick hovered outside of her room for a while, hesitating to enter before he knocked on her door. “June? Is everything okay?”


“No.” She replied, evidently close to crying.

“What’s going on? Who was on the phone?” He asked, frowning as he did so.

Juniper shook her head, not really wanting to answer. She took quite a long time before mumbling the answer quietly. “Daniel.”

Unintentionally narrowing his eyes, Nick felt himself start to get angry. What did that asshole want? “What did he call you about?”


“He was on about how when he died there’d be no one there so he wanted someone to take over, meaning he was telling me that he wanted to get full custody.” She started, none of that making any sense to her. He didn’t like kids, so it felt like he was just doing that to hurt her. “I said that I didn’t want to fight because well I just don’t want to and I didn’t want to mention the adoption on the phone because I felt like that would have angered him, and then he asked why and started accusing me of cheating on him and saying that he might not actually be the dad when he is, and then he was insistent that I cheated with you, and then he got angry and started yelling and I got scared. He mentioned about having booked a paternity test soon and I just…” She shook her head, trying to stop crying.


Huffing, Nick could hardly believe the nerve of that guy. First he dumps her and then he does this? “How about I call back and teach him a lesson on how to treat people?” He suggested rhetorically, not actually going to do it, even though he’d want to; he knew that’d just upset her.

“I just don’t get why. Why now? Why at the eleventh fucking hour? He could have done this sometime in the last few months or whatever and I wouldn’t have been this bad because whatever, but I could have the baby any moment now and I just I don’t get it. And I don’t get why he’d just assume I cheated I mean I just…” She groaned audibly. “Get your camera, take a picture me and of how shit of a situation I’m in now, so next time when I like a guy, you can show me the picture and I’ll learn to join the church and become a nun instead.”


“If I take a picture, then they’ll probably find it and not let you become a nun.” He gave her a sad smile and then moved to sit next to her. “Whatever he does, we’ll get around it. No matter what lawyer he gets or what trick he pulls, we’ll just say how he treated you and no judge in their right mind will let him have custody. That and get Anthony on our side and you know he’ll just fuck things up for Daniel.”

Looking down at the floor, Juniper mumbled. “Do you think I should tell them about this?” She meant Anthony and Lukas when she said them. She didn’t want to get their hopes up, knowing they’re probably anticipating her calling when she goes into labour, and she doesn’t want to get their hopes up only to crush them. She wanted her baby to go to them so badly, she knew she had made the right choice in choosing them.


Nick hesitated, unsure. “I don’t know. I know we will have to tell them, but I… I don’t think we should now.” He watched as she nodded in agreement and then got up. “You doing alright by the way? I know you mentioned having a few little contractions earlier this morning.”

“I’m fine. I’m still having some but they’re getting quite close now.” She mumbled, giving a rather bittersweet smile. “I don’t know if I’ll be as happy when it’s over this time. I mean, I’ll be happy to not be the size of a whale anymore.” Laughing a little at herself, she then glanced over at her phone as it began to ring again, frowning as she recognised the number.


“Him again?” Nick asked, frowning as he did so.

Juniper nodded, sighing heavily. She got her phone and handed it to him. “Can you keep this for the mean time? I know I’ll only end up answering it and stressing myself out more if I keep it in here.”

Nodding, Nick took her phone from her. “Sure thing.” He knew that if he did call again, he’d probably either give him a piece of his mind or just let it ring endlessly. Whichever he thinks would be worse at that point in time. Frowning slightly, he couldn’t help but read the text he sent her as it lit up on the screen, and it didn’t make sense. “Hey, how does he know about Lukas and Anthony? I thought you said you didn’t want to mention it over the phone…”


Juniper looked away, avoiding eye contact as she stayed quiet.

“What did you do?” Nick asked suspiciously, watching her seem uncomfortable under his gaze.

“Nothing, nothing.” She knew he’d be angry at her if she told the truth, so she tried to avoid it for as long as she could.

“Juniper…” His tone had a warning edge to it as he asked. “You haven’t been talking to him, right?”


Wincing slightly, she gave an awkward smile as she answered. “Maybe?”

“Maybe?” He repeated, giving her a look.

“Yes.” She confessed in a smaller voice, still avoiding his gaze.


He let out a single bitter laugh of disbelief before asking. “Are you kidding me? You’re texting him again? Do you not remember what he did? He dumped you because you’re pregnant with his kid.”

“Yeah, I kinda realised. I don’t exactly need a reminder.” She snapped back at him.

“Oh so you do remember what happened, I thought you had forgot seeing as though you were doing something so stupid.”


“How is me wanting to talk to the father of my child being stupid?” She pretty much growled, glaring at him as she did so.

“The father of a child you’re not keeping, and a child who might not even go to the parents you want. I was going to say that he’ll just end up hurting you again but it looks like he’s already done that.”

Juniper stayed quiet, stubbornly looking to the side.


“I just can’t believe, in what world would that ever be a good-” He stopped himself when he noticed she seemed to be in pain. “You alright?”

Shaking her head, she muttered. “I know we’re supposed to be arguing and stuff but can we press pause?” She asked, holding out her hand. As soon as he took it, she held his hand tightly to try and counteract the pain.

“Is it time to go to the hospital?” He asked, perching next to her on the bed, and she nodded in response. “I think the bag’s still in the car, we just need to ask Sarah to watch the girls.” He recalled.


“Okay, so if you just try and hold her still, Miss Matthews, we’re going to swab the inside of her mouth.” The nurse instructed, coming awfully close to her newborn daughter with a cotton swab.

“Be careful, she’s small.” She didn’t realise paternity tests could happen this soon after babies were born. Her daughter was only a few hours old, and was already being swabbed. It broke her heart having to tell Anthony and Lukas about what Daniel was trying to do, she got really upset over it too. She probably would be more upset, but she was still partly out of it from the pain meds. It was a nice out of it though, relaxing.


“I’ll be careful, don’t worry.” The nurse reassured her, smiling at her as she took the swab.

“So small.” Juniper repeated, looking down at the baby in her arms. She didn’t feel quite the same for her as she did for Roisin. She still loved this baby girl, who didn’t yet have a name, but it was different. She had come to accept that this baby girl wasn’t coming home with her, and was hopefully going home with her adopted dads.

“Okay, all done.” The nurse smiled, removing the cotton swab from the baby’s mouth. “I’ll just take this down to the lab, grab the other two and then we should know pretty soon.” She explained, smiling slightly as she did so.


The atmosphere in the other room was awkward. It was just Nick and Daniel alone in there, the nurse was getting a swab from the baby, and neither of them spoke to the other. Neither had anything to say. There was a mutual hatred that kept the two of them from speaking. Daniel was on his phone, doing something related to work, while Nick was watching him out of the corner of his eyes. It angered him to think that Juniper’s baby could end up with him. He had done nothing for her, and had actively made her life hell from when she first found out about the baby. He wanted nothing more than for him to stay miles away from both her and the baby, but knew it was probably unlikely. Bastards like him got everything, and it wasn’t right.

Daniel’s phone started to ring. He glared at Nick and grumbled. “Don’t steal anything while I’m gone.” And walked out of the room.


In that moment, Nick was completely alone with the two samples on the side. An idea sprung to mind, one he knew would keep Daniel far, far away from Juniper and the baby, and he knew, even if it was dishonest and she might hate him for a while, that is was for the greater good, and it would make her happier in the long run. Besides, she’d understand his motives at the end of the day.


When the lab had the results back, the two guys gathered back into the room that Juniper was in. At this moment in time, it took all her willpower to not start crying. She didn’t want to give the baby to Daniel. She wanted to give her to Anthony and Lukas instead. She knew they would care a lot for her; Daniel probably wouldn’t. It was a doctor reading the results instead of the nurse.

“Okay, so we got a DNA sample from the child in question and her two possible fathers. The lab analysed it and came back with the results. There is a slight margin of error in these tests where sometimes it may not work, but this doesn’t appear to be the case. From the results it’s apparent that the child’s biological father is Nick Draven.”

“How?” Juniper asked rather soon after the doctor said that. She managed to avoid eye contact with both Nick and Daniel, not understanding what was going on. “We never fucked though.” She mumbled, confused. She then felt guilty because she had accidentally swore, but it was okay because babies can’t remember anything. At least, she can’t remember being a baby. Must have been fun.


“The results don’t lie Jennifer.” Daniel spoke rather sharply. He had knew all along that there was something going on between those two. He had been played by her, and she would have almost gotten away with it too. He could tell she was physically uncomfortable as she held the child closer to her, the child she tried to pass off as his. “I knew you were low and had next to no morals but-”

“Hey, don’t talk to her like that.” Nick was quick to defend her, strategically placing himself between him and Juniper. “You’ve done jack all but treat her like crap, you can’t talk down to her like that.” Folding his arms, he glared at Daniel. “I think it’s time for you to leave.”

Scoffing, he rolled his eyes. “Like I care. She’s your train wreck now, not mine.” And with that, he left.


Juniper relaxed a little, but still held the baby close to her, mostly just in case he came back. She was still really confused about the results.

“Well, myself or one of the nurses will be back to check on you in a short while.” The doctor excused herself, leaving the room also.

It was just Juniper and Nick in the room, with their supposed child despite the fact that the closest they had gotten to each other was that one time her hand accidentally grazed his bum. She didn’t pay a lot of attention in science, and she knew her family could breed like rabbits, but that just wasn’t possible. “What did you do?” She asked, giving him a look.


“I may or may not have switched the samples.” Shrugging it off as if it was nothing, he gave her a small smile.

“How?” She asked, baffled by how he did that.

“They were stickers on a beaker June, I just peeled them off and swapped them over.” He explained, and then gave her a look. “It wasn’t exactly rocket science.”

“Why?” She then asked, tilting her head at him. “You could have gotten caught and into a lot of trouble.”

“I did it because I didn’t want her going to him. That wasn’t how all this was supposed to turn out.” He explained his actions, sitting next to her. “She’s supposed to go to two loving parents, not to him.”


“But still, what if you had gotten caught? Then what?” She asked, and then sighed heavily. “I appreciate you doing something like that for me, but please don’t do anything that stupid again. If you had gotten caught…” She trailed off, not wanting to think about it.

“You’re right, it was really stupid and I’m sorry. I just… When I was in there with him he was on his phone as if this whole thing didn’t matter to him, and then I thought about everything that had happened to you and what you had gone through and everything that’s going to happen, it just really rubbed me the wrong way. I know Anthony’s a great lawyer but he could have probably found a team of people like Anthony, and I didn’t want her to grow up with someone like him. I don’t want her to know someone like him as dad.” Without meaning to, his voice got slightly louder as he spoke as he got more riled up about what could have happened. “I guess we both make stupid mistakes, huh?” Taking a moment to calm himself down, he then tried to change the subject. “I think she’s probably the blondest kid I’ve ever seen.” He pointed out, glancing over at the baby.


“Do you want to hold her?” She offered, and then smiled sheepishly. “My arms are getting kinda tired and I don’t think they’d appreciate it if we dropped their baby.”

Nick carefully took the baby from her. He wasn’t entirely sure how to feel right now. It was kind of weird because it felt like the baby should be coming home with them, but she’s not. Part of him did wish that the baby was coming home with them, but he and Juniper weren’t in the position to be looking after another baby, no matter how cute and charming she seemed to be already. “Are you sure Daniel was even there when she was made? She looks pretty much like your double.” He pointed out, smiling as he did so.

“I’m kind of surprised Daniel believed she could be yours. She’s way too blonde to be yours.” She laughed a little, also looking over at the baby. “I wonder what they’re going to call her.”


“I think they might still be in the waiting room, if your arms have recovered I’ll go get them.” He smiled at her, handing her back the baby.

“I hope they’re not angry that the whole custody thing turned out to be, well, y’know.” She mumbled, holding the baby close. It was weird holding her, because she felt like hers and not hers at the same time.

“They won’t be.” He assured her, leaving her alone in the room with the baby.


“You do look a lot like me.” Juniper mumbled to the baby, smiling slightly. It made her smile to see the baby seemingly respond to her voice, as if she recognised it. “Blonde hair, purple eyes… maybe when you’re older, people might mistake us for twins.” She laughed lightly, albeit slightly bittersweetly. Sighing heavily, she mumbled. “There’s going to be a day when you figure out the truth, but please don’t hate me. I did this for you. I didn’t do it because I don’t love you, that’s the opposite reason. I love you so much, I want you to have two parents who love you and who can devote their full time to you. You might find it unfair because you have an older sister, and you’ll likely have younger siblings too, but I just hope one day you’ll understand.” She whispered, cuddling the baby close. “I’m doing this because I love you, and I don’t want you to have to grow up sharing a room with two older sisters with only one bathroom between you, where I’ve not got a proper job and where you can’t be proud of me. I promise I’ll still see you though, on your birthdays and maybe on mine. I’ll get you Christmas presents too, don’t worry.” She laughed a little, and then said solemnly. “Please, don’t hate me for this. I hope you’ll understand, even if you think it makes no sense that you have a sister, maybe more siblings one day… You’ll understand hopefully one day.”


She was quiet for a while before Anthony and Lukas came in. Juniper smiled at them and asked. “Do you want to meet your little girl?”

“Hey baby girl.” Lukas came over to Juniper and carefully took the baby from her arms. “She’s so beautiful.” He was unable to believe this was finally happening.

“She really is.” Anthony agreed, coming up behind his husband to look at the baby. “She looks a lot like you Jen.”

“She does, Nick said that as well.” Juniper agreed, watching them with her baby. Well, was she her baby anymore? She was more like their baby.


“So, what actually happened regarding the paternity test? I thought you said that you weren’t the dad.” Anthony pointed out, looking between Nick and Jen. He had a feeling something was going on between the two of them; they were exceedingly close for just friends.

“It’s kind of a long story,” Nick started, unsure of where to go with this. Could he really tell them what he did?

“It’s not that long. Daniel went on a lot of business trips, sometimes leaving me alone. I was feeling lonely and you came in to comfort me. We never really anticipated anything to happen, and didn’t expect anything to happen. I didn’t really think much of it as it was only once, but I guess once is all it takes.” She came up with the excuse, glancing up at him. If he could mess up the test like that for her and the baby, risking to face whatever consequences came from that, then she could at least lie and cover him.


Lukas looked at the baby and then back at them, feeling a newfound sense of dread. “You’re still okay with our arrangement, right?” Asking quietly, he was scared of the answer.

“Mine or not, the reasons for not keeping her still stand.” Nick clarified, giving a small smile.

It was Juniper who then asked them “Have you thought about a name for her?”


“A few, but none of them seem quite right now she’s here, none seem to fit her. We liked floral names like Lily or Daisy. There was Rose but, well, you know. It’d be a bit weird having Roisin and Rose.” Anthony explained, giving a rather sheepish smile.

“We then also wanted something similar to your name if it was a girl, a way of saying thank you for her.” Grinning, Lukas added this.

“You don’t have to do that.” Juniper smiled in return. It wouldn’t really mean much if her daughter shared her fake name, after all, it wasn’t her actual name.


“What about the name Juniper?” Nick suggested, ignoring the look adult Juniper was giving him. “It’s a floral name, its similar to Jen’s name, and I think she kinda looks like a Juniper.”

“Juniper…” Anthony mumbled, considering it. Lukas stayed quiet for a while, clearly thinking before voicing his opinion.

“I like that name. I think it suits her.”

“I like it too. Little baby Juniper.”


It was a while later and visiting hours were over. Nick had been allowed to stay with Juniper though, because he was put down as the baby’s biological father, despite not being the baby’s dad.

It was unusually quiet for the two of them, Nick being the one to break the silence. “Are you sure you don’t want a picture with her?” She had made him pack a camera specifically so that she had a picture at least of herself and the baby, but now she didn’t seem all too fussed.

“Maybe later.” She mumbled, not wanting to do it because it would make it feel harder to give her up. Sighing slightly, she muttered. “Hopefully that Juniper is luckier in love than I am. I hope she doesn’t end up in a situation like this; having to give away a baby because she can’t keep it and look after it properly.”


“I wouldn’t say you’re unlucky, I’d just say you’ve not found the ending yet, you know?” He suggested, smiling slightly.

She smiled, and then started to laugh. “I never thought I’d hear you say something like that. What happened to the Nick that didn’t believe in love and thought it was dead?”

“That was recently divorced, bitter Nick. I’m not recently divorced and I’m not as bitter anymore.” He pointed out, folding his arms. “What happened to the Juniper who believed in love and finding the one and all that junk?”


“What can I say? After I’ve dated and had a child with another blonde douche, and still for the most part single, I guess I’m losing hope.” She pointed out, sighing heavily and looking over at baby Juniper. It was weird having a child with the same name as her.

“Maybe you should stop dating blonde guys then?” He suggested. “Go wild, try a brunette.” He joked, grinning as he did so.

“Do you believe in the one?” She asked out of interest, glancing over at him.


Shrugging, he then clarified. “I dunno. It kinda fluctuates. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. When I was with Elle I did, and believed she was the one, and after she left me, I stopped and thought it was all a hoax.”

“And now?” Juniper pressed.

Smiling slightly at her, he answered. “I think I might be starting to again.”


Glancing over at the baby, Juniper asked. “Can you get her for me? I think I want the picture with her.”

Nick got up and handed baby Juniper to adult Juniper. “I figured you’d end up changing your mind sooner or later.” Getting his camera out of the bag, he took a moment to make sure it was set up properly. “You ready?” He asked, and at her nod, he took the picture. “It’s sweet.” He commented, and then showed her the picture.

“Yeah, it is.” She agreed, smiling as she did so. At least she had something to remember all this by, even if it was just a picture. She knew that she could keep some contact with baby Juniper, but not a lot. It was important to make the last few moments count, before saying goodbye.


There was a moment as they sat next to each other on the hospital bed, close proximity. She mumbled quietly. “You know, I think you’ll fine someone soon. Someone nice.”

“Oh?” He asked, intrigued by this. “Which intuition you playing on? Psychic one or mom one?”

Shrugging, Juniper grinned. “Bit of both.” She then explained. “I just feel like we’re coming to the end of something, you know? You’ve definitely got full custody of Lainey and Elle’s out of your life, and I think I’ve been through all the blonde arsehole drama I can deal with for this lifetime… I dunno. I just feel like things are gonna change soon.”


“Change for the better or are you planning being dramatic with a ginger next?” He teased, and then added. “Not so sure how you can top what you’ve already done though. Maybe try having twins.”

“No more being insanely dramatic. I think things are going to change for the better.” Ignoring his teasing, she smiled at him, an action which he reciprocated. There was a pause, seemingly a hiatus of them both just smiling. Neither of them knew exactly what they were doing as they began to move slightly closer to each other. His hand moved, about to caress her cheek when they were interrupted by the baby making a fuss.


Nick moved away from her, snapping out of whatever daze they were both in first. What was he thinking? She had just had another man’s child, she almost certainly wasn’t interested in something like that right now. “Sorry, I uhm…” He trailed off, feeling awkward.

“No, no, don’t I just- never mind.” She smiled slightly at him before trying to work out what the baby wanted.

“I’ll just give you two some privacy.” He decided, leaving the room.


“C’mon baby don’t cry. Please don’t cry?” Juniper tried to stop the baby from crying, but it seemed to not much avail. “Please stop. Please? You’re going to make me start crying soon.” She held the baby close, trying that technique, and was happy that the baby started to calm down. “Was that all you wanted? To be close to me before we say goodbye?” Pulling the baby away, she wanted to look at her daughter and ignore the fact that her voice was wavering. “I don’t think you’re my carbon copy, you look a little like my mom too.” She confessed, smiling slightly.


Sighing heavily, she mumbled. “This is only going to get harder before it gets easier.” The baby was resting mostly on her thighs, and she drew little lines on the baby’s tummy, remembering that Roisin used to like that when she was this small. “It’s going to sound weird, but I never thought of you as a person. I always thought of you as something to give away, or a great way of getting to sit down on buses and tubes, and also an annoyance when random people kept touching me and asking when I was due, like they had some kind of right to just randomly touch me just because I was pregnant.” Rolling her eyes at the memory, she then continued. “Even when I felt you move and kick, you never felt like a baby to me, and now you’re here… You have no idea how badly I want to keep you.” At this point she started to cry. “It worked not thinking of you as a person because that way this would be easier.”


Wiping away her tears, she whispered. “I told myself I wouldn’t cry, because I was aware of the ending the whole time. Right from when I found out about you, I knew I wouldn’t be keeping you. I tried not to fall in love with you because I know it’d be harder, but here we are. You’re a perfect little charmer who’s made me fall harder and faster than I thought possible. I didn’t want to love you because you’re not mine to love, but I guess you just have that effect on me, don’t you June-bug?”


“But you’re going to love your dads. I know you are. Hell, I’ve only known them a few months and I love them. Me and Lukas went and got our nails done and he said that if I saw anything I liked for you while we were out that he’d get it for you. I’ve picked out quite a few cute little things for you, hopefully they’ll tell you what, but I don’t know. Your other dad, Anthony, is such a great guy. He cares about so much, I know he might seem a little cold or scary sometimes, but he cares so much and I know he cares so much about you. Both of them do.”


“I think that’s the problem. Too many people are in love with you.” Laughing a little, she then sighed. “I wish I didn’t start cuddling you. I wish they had just given you straight to your dads because this has made it so much harder than what I could have ever anticipated. I know they’ll be here soon, ready to take you home. It just hurts that home isn’t with me.” Sighing heavily, she kissed the top of the baby’s head. “Just… please understand one day. I’m doing this because I love you.” Holding her daughter for what could be the final time, Juniper did everything possible to make this moment last. “I love you, so much.”


AN: This chapter is exactly 5000 words long, (excluding this AN) without a doubt the longest chapter I’ve done to date (I think at least?)

I know it’s not a proper baby (like game one) but a resized one but do you know how difficult baby poses are? Their rigs are like evil, like they were made in Satan’s arsehole or something. They’re confusing and I was like “why go to so much trouble for a burrito when we can have a resized toddler?” If Juniper has more kids in the future though, they’ll be burritos, don’t worry. It’s just because we’d only see baby Juniper about once and this was a very baby pose heavy chapter, and I didn’t want to mess around posing burritos. I know the baby looked kinda big to say it’s a newborn (I think? I dunno I’ve never seen a baby that’s like an hour old, the youngest baby I’ve seen was my cousin when she was like a month old but she was premature so she was small-ish).

And sorry if the poses look weird, I have no fucking clue how you hold babies (Carys knows, I was trying to convince her to adopt one for a period of time so she can work it out and tell me but she said no ¬-¬) all I know is you need to support the head (I only know that because I wasn’t doing that when I was 10 and holding my cousin and I had to like have a cushion under my arms while holding her lmao) which is happening in all of the poses so… 😀

 Also, because I know that not everyone follows me on tumblr, over there I was tagged to do a moodboard and I did one for Junie and I’m secretly rather proud so I’m gonna share it here just because

Juniper's Mood Board

Tada 😀

I low-key hate how I called her Juniper (as in the baby) because I hate it when parents do that: naming their kids after themselves like why? Did you creativity fly out the window? No offence intended if anyone’s done that, but I just don’t get it, I mean there are SO MANY names, why pick your own?

I guess this has sentimental value because they’ll always be even more connected by their names, buuuuuuut this is the only time this will ever happen. I think it was tired/tipsy me who thought “IT WoULd BeE CUtE if BABy and JUnipER haD tHe SAAAAmE NAAAAMeeee”

that me is an idiot and idk why I trust her with anything. But, I kinda agree with her that I like how they have the same name. Plus I doubt we’ll see her much anyway (not before chapter 50 (BIG THINGS HAPPEN THEN TRUST ME AH I AM HYPED FOR IT) at least and I dunno when after that and I’m planning on things moving slightly faster because damn this is taking AGES this time last generation all babies were born and I think this was the one where Alyssa bought a wedding dress before being engaged, like Alyssa was almost a grandmother this time last generation jesus christ I need to pull up my socks, then again last generation I wasn’t murdering teenagers on tumblr nor blonde husbands on wordpress/blogger so…)